Childhood Memories.

I'm fully confident that those Abraham Hicks youtube video's are working wonders - feeling a massive shift in my thinking and got a spring back in my step. I was actually excited to get into work this morning - and had a really nice day. Amazing that that even has to be shocking :)

So tomorrow we have our first conference call - which means that everyone across the whole of Canada will be on the call - from my department only of course - otherwise that would be a bit mental. I have to think of my most cherished childhood memory and then share it on the call. It's hard to think of something isn't it when someone puts you on the spot like that? So there I was sitting at my desk - thinking and wracking my brain - thinking some more. And then it came to me - a photo of my brother and I when we were little kids - I must have been about 8 and he would have been about 6 and a half - and there we are standing next to each other on one of the cement blocks in Llandudno, Wales - with our super duper plastic sunglasses on - mine were flourescent pink and his were white - funny that I can't even remember what I was wearing - but I know that he had on some little cream jeans, a proper seventies whopper collar shirt and a little tank top - you know the pic don't you when you're standing next to each other with a hand on the hip and then swinging it out to the max - sooooooo cute.

And that was it - I was reminded of the adventures we used to have when we were little - bonnie and happy - driving in the car - 'are we there yet?' - 'how much longer Mom?' - 'we there yet Dad?' - sticks of rock and sunshine - and then a drive through Colwyn Bay on the way home and looking up at the castle wall where we had stopped off and taken more pictures :) I'm smiling cos those days were blissful and blessed in their simplicity. And then I well up of course - we used to sing in the car on the way there - Dad playing 'The Beatles' under duress :) and we would sing out loud to 'Get Back' - 'Brotherhood of Man' with 'Save All Your Kisses for Me' - and my Brother just loved Shakin' Stevens with his 'Green Door'. We've all done it - twanged on tennnis rackets and sung into hair brushes. We had a band - my friends and I had one too - singing to Bucks Fizz and 'Making your Mind up' - we never did do the dance in the end cos I think we ended up being Greek dancers in 'Helen of Troy' - first time I ever wore make-up. My teacher - Mrs B we'll call her - awesome lady actually found a photo of us girls dressed up for that play - and there I am with my pink lipstick and green eye shadow and hair up in a bun - must say I look lovely :))) Awwwww - it's nice to reminisce.

And with all that safely tucked away in my heart and in my memory, I am reminded that my parents did a bl**dy awesome job - the best that they knew how - with the tool kit that they had. Lovely feeling. So there you go - that will be the memory that I will share tomorrow - driving in the car to Llandudno - with my lovely family - through the lush green of Wales where my Dad would purposely open the window when there was that poo-ey manure smell outside and we would look out for sheep and cows on the hills - and you'd see the odd house dotted here and there, off in the distance. It was on one of these trips that I found my passion for the sea and the beach - is it any wonder that I live right next to one now. The smell of the sea always takes me back to these trips.

Had a lovely weekend too - scorching hot so I spent Saturday in the sun - by the pool and listening to my tracks on my little icube - then went to have oysters with my friends at Kitsilano Beach - love going there cos you can see the sunset without the mountains being in the way - and it drops just in behind the sea, the edge of the World - so so beautiful. My crush joined us for a couple drinks too - I say crush - really this was the second time I've seen him but you know when you just know that someone is trouble - I even spoke to my best friend about him some weeks ago - he's tracked me down on facebook so we have exchanged a few messages - but it makes me smile - oh come on, we all need some fun in our lives - and even Esther Hicks says it - how can it be bad if it feels good :))) So there we go - no expectations - and the daily reminder that love comes from inside us - happiness comes from inside - and when you can get all those ducks in a row, well the rest - the rest is just the blessed trimmings of life - the memories that I will look back on one day and smile - Thank God I lived!!! Isn't that what the Slovenian was all about? Indeed - that's exactly what he was all about :)

Okay - gonna run - time to wash up and do my meditation - G'Nite. And I can't get rid of that photo at the bottom of the page - so my OCD will just have to suck it up and get to bed!!!!!

And if you've time - listen to this - I bet it changes the way you view a relationship:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vL3lm1Inplc&feature=related

The Proposal..................................

Thought I had another episode of Corr'rs to go but that is not the case and now that I've just eaten one of my special yeast and wheat free apple muffins, I've got to wait until I can do my 20 minute yoga - so figured I'd write a few paragraphs.

Better day today - no rain - supposed to be 26 degrees tomorrow. I'm really enjoying my new job - people are genuinely friendly in there and very supportive. Such a novel thing for me and I am certainly not complaining. One of the women said to me yesterday "you can trust me" and you know when you can just hear the 'woo woo woo' of the sirens in your head - never ever trust someone who says "you can trust me" :) Just taking her with a pinch of salt and keeping my distance. It's just one of those spaces where you just keep your head down and just get on with the work. And it's really busy and all the people I have spoken with so far have been just lovely. Really neat offices too - overlooking the water, pity we don't have a view - apparently they've just moved to that floor too from the tenth which had an awesome view - oh well. Hotel next door sees some fancy guests too from time to time - so might meet someone famous!! :)

Missing my yoga classes already - we can dress casual at work so I am going to figure out a way to get to classes on my way home - must be a way that I can do that without having to carry too much stuff. Awwww, I've just looked out of my window and the sky is all pink behind the trees cos of the sun.

Just ran out on the balcony and took some pictures - looks lovely out there :) Summer sunsets are the best. Seagulls are having a field day with all their squawking!

Been reading 'The Mastery of Love' recently by Don Miguel Ruiz - read it once before but you know when you pick up a book for the second time and the words mean something more - something new that perhaps you didn't feel the first time around? Well that's how it's been for me - biggest piece was reading one of the short stories in there - about not looking for happiness outside of yourself - certainly nothing profound - but I forget that from time to time - especially just recently. There's some lovely bits in there actually - how we start off as babies and by the age of two, begin to take on other people's stuff - losing that innocence, ability and fullness to love - and never quite fully being who we really are - until we start to peel away the layers of course and start to do our work.

Oh yeah - that was it - brings me to the conversation I heard at work today - I didn't mean to, but then it was hard not to when they were both chatting right behind me. So blonde one was chatting to blonde two. Blonde one says that her boyfriend just left her a box containing her engagement ring on her bedside table - so that she saw it when she woke up and while he was out walking the dog. How bizarre hey? How literally crazy I thought. Beautiful ring mind. But it just brought to that space where normally we see something and pass judgement - and here she is chatting about her confusion and how he hadn't told her how much he loved her - and yet most of us, some of us, would look at that ring and then her, and then back at the ring, in our singledom or resentment in a current relationship, or whatever, and think 'Lucky Cow - look at the size of that ring' - so many times things are not what they appear to be on the outside hey?!?

Was just a thought today - I found myself feeling quite sorry for her. Wonder why she wore it at all? It all became a big deal in the end about the fact that it would be broadcast on facebook if she didn't wear it - what has the world come to hey? Completely crazy. Funny - just as I typed that, I got a message on facebook. Oh well - just food for thought - I'm gonna head now and get washed up before my yoga practice - my shoulders are aching like good things at the moment.

Later :)

Melancholy

I've got the 'ump this evening and not even sure why - I've been beating myself up for not giving more attention to my blog - but I kid you not, the summer has been mental busy. Had my first day on the new job - supposed to be for 6 weeks and I think that that is un-settling me as well cos what the frig am I gonna do after that - I know I should be concentrating on what I want versus what I don't want - but there's no time for yoga at the moment either which means that I am cramming in stuff when I get home - think that's why I'm feeling the melancholy. That and the fact that it's his birthday today and I have been having some flash backs - not nice ones either. I read my blog postings on him yesterday - made me feel so bloody sad!!!! What am I doing????? I don't really want an answer to that - I know already - feels like I am on a merry-go-round or something.

First day wasn't all that either - pissed down rain all day today and that really affects my mood - who likes rain?!? By the time I got to work, I was all be-draggled and they were standing there waiting for me when I got out of the lift. Barely had time to put my bags down before I got to walk round all 10 floors in my new 3 inch heels :) NICE!!!!! NOT!!!!! And shake hands with people - and had no hand sanitizer on my desk and had to use someone else's frigging head set and I could see make-up caked on the spongey bit that sat on my ear!!!! I was not impressed. But I didn't say anything - no drama - no moaning - no 'asks' - nothing - I just sat there thinking about the washing I'd be giving my right ear when I got home. I've just sanitized it actually with some alcohol I use on my make-up brushes. Yeh, so it pissed rain all day - my hair looked like $hit and I'm just in a pissy mood now - hmmmpppfffff!!!!!! $hit when you live on your own too cos there's no-one to take it out on when you get home!!!! :) So I just end up taking it out on myself - stressing and getting all neurotic. Where's my Abraham Hicks now hey? Where's my vortex now hey? And then off I go into another spin again.

I did go and watch the sunset last week - it was wierd though you know cos I felt nothing - numb!!!! Felt a little pang of ridiculous actually - so yeh - sat on the log on the beach and had walked all about the Downtown core during the day in the searing heat with cramps in my tummy cos it was that time of the month. I thought I was going to collapse in one of the stores that I went into - bought myself a nice yoga top - pink - only $20 which is a right bargain :)

Had a couple of lovely hot days too down by the pool - proper topped up my tan - in readiness for autumn now - I can feel the shift in the air - temperatures not as hot and today was a kicker carrying that darned umbrella again. Got myself a foam roller as well from a local fitness shop - tried it out at my pilates class last week and they're marvellous for kneading the knots out of your lower back and shoulders - just what I needed.

Went to a dinner party on Saturday night - was telling my BFF about it yesterday - probably the most I have laughed in a really long time - you know when your cheeks hurt cos you're laughing so hard? It was one of those nights. Awesome food and company - we danced and partied like it was 1999! :) Meant to be going to Kelowna with this crew for the next long weekend - just wish it wasn't a four hour drive away - but to be fair the vineyards are worth it when you get there. And I have asked my friend's boyfriend to drive my car on the way there and then it makes it a little easier - of course I will be sitting at the front with him making sure that he doesn't work my car too hard and / or go over the limit!!!!

Not sure what else to share with you at the moment - just knew that I should check in before I lose you!

It's only a matter of time before the long nights settle in, so I will be back to writing more again - it's the weather isn't it? Makes you feel like you should be out and about.

Okay well I am going to take my tired little body now to my red rug and work this stiffness out on my new foam roller :) Chat soon :) Oh yeah, photos are from my walk last week - if you look real close you can see the ferry through the window of the second one. The red bench is in the same building where the piano is - just a different view of the same space - it's the building that he used to work in in Gastown - I know I know - sad cow! :)

A quick update

It is so passed my bedtime but I just knew that I had to get tapping on my laptop - if I leave it any longer it will be like going back to the gym - although in fairness I have been so crazy busy the last few weeks - it's been nuts! But a nice nuts!! Stars did tell me that things would be on the up on the social front and they sure have been. The weather helps for sure :) We have had nothing short of a beautiful month so far - each morning you can smell that freshness in the air and then each evening, you have breath taking sunsets. There is a tree just across the street, at the top of the small hill - sitting under that tree you feel that you are safe under an umbrella of the most lush green leaves imaginable and the tree itself has some of its' roots above ground, so it's like being in the 'Lord of the Rings' - I sit there in what feels like a chair and thank this tree for allowing me to sit there tucked away in it's cradle - and watch the sunset in the distance. It doesn't half drop fast - the sun I mean and then I always wonder where it's going and who will see it next.

Tomorrow is the 17th August and yes - 10 years on from the walk on Byron Bay Beach. Of course I will be going out to watch the sunset tomorrow evening - I can't explain why - I don't even know why - it just seems like the right thing to do - in fact not even the 'right' thing to do - just simply, the thing to do. It's not about remembering the past, I thing it's more about honoring the passage of time and acknowledging how far I have come since that day. I have a concrete date to use as a comparison - quite amazing really :)

Wonder if he will remember too?

My reader seems to think so - I went to see her on Saturday for some clarity and confirmation more than anything; and she acts as a mirror for the things that I already know deep down. I wanted desperately to hear something about work - and you can't listen to that thing about work without listening to that thing about family - and then when you've heard about family, you move onto money - and then when you've done money, we all move onto love - of course LOVE :) She said it again - PATIENCE. Patience!!!!! A word that I must look the meaning up of actually - but I kid you not every day since, patience has been my mantra and I am asking the Big Man to lead me to that place of stillness, acceptance and patience. I honestly think that so much of my rush on time has come from people telling me at a young age that certain things need to or have to be accomplished by a certain time - but I just don't think that those 'old' rules work in this 'new' time and space.

As my friend Krystal reminded me the other day - It certainly is nice to have something to look forward to - imagine if I had done it all already???? Not that there is anything wrong with that either - but there cannot be a generalized ruling for every person on the planet - we all have such a unique and wonderful journey. Anyway, I am getting off topic - so she said some stuff, the reader I mean that resonated and some that didn't. And then she finished of again by mentioning him - the Slovenian and yes I did bring him up this time - he was there in the cards - but then how could he not be? I think about him almost every single day and if the verbage of Esther Hicks - whose inspirational teachings I have been listening to on youtube for the last week are anything to go by - then simply by the law of attraction, of course he is going to be there. But this time she said something new, because I asked something new.

I got the answer I wanted - it was like taking breath for the first time in ten years - I shared my secret with a friend this morning - and it was a secret up to that point because I didn't want anyone to taint my 'knowing' with their experiences and judgement - their shedding of light - telling me what this all meant or didn't mean - she told me something that I have known deep in my heart all this time - all these days since the first day I met him - I will keep that to myself for now as I am not ready to share. It is precious and it is mine - ours. I feel lighter and brighter - I feel like myself again - I feel joy again and I feel peace. How do I know what she said was right? Because she nailed some stuff she told me - dates, places - nailed it!!!!! And all you naysayers out there shaking your heads right now - well you know what you can do!!!! :))))

So this is where I have to leave it for now - it;s 10.30pm - I know it's not late but I have to do my meditation yet and have been playing catch up all day even though I got out of bed early this morning. My yoga classes are going really well - working really hard and have enjoyed the hot yoga the best so far. Feel so much better in my body - more bendy and my rib cage feels bigger so I can inhale more air - quite brilliant how fast you can feel the results of exercise.

The photo I have attached is of the little Bambi that my Brother gave to me when I left home once upon a time - you may recall from the piece I wrote some weeks ago about my Family. I sent it to him - the picture I mean - he didn't mention it - but his voice this weekend when I spoke to him, had a gentleness in it again - so I know he got it - awwwww!!!! :)

I will do my absolute best to get back to you tomorrow and fill in the gaps of the last week or so - nothing too crazy has happened - but I do have news on the work front - G'nite :)

Ten years later...................

So here we all are in the throws of Mercury Retrograde - when the universe conspires to make us deal with all the crap that we haven't already dealt with - regurgitating old wounds and heart breaks. It would be very naiive of me to think that I could get away with it this time. I am a big fat whopping ten years on from my Slovenian and the messages are thrust at me left, right and centre to finally get over this thing so that I have the space for what I so clearly in need of - and have been searching for my whole life.

I sat here at the weekend and watched the ending of 'Remember Me' with Robert Pattinson - it left me with goose bumps all over and a horror at the events of September 11th - sorry for those of you that haven't seen it. I bring that up as it is nearly a decade since those horrific events too place - and that movie adds a new level to my feelings of it. My friend had been telling me about Hay House for some time now - so this morning I just happened to tune it. One lady was saying that she feels that her current job is not in line with who she knows she is at the core - it's not in alignment with her spirituality. Funny to hear that as I have often felt that way - but my sitting here and writing my blog is not going to pay the bills - Life Coaching will though and I am searching now for a way to incorporate the learning into my every day so that I can become certified and work for businesses and people, and provide on a charitable level too - perhaps going to women's shelters or something like that. There has to be a way to give back too right?????

So anyways - the speaker on the radio show said to the listener that there was a blockage there from a past life - one in which she had been imprisoned for her spirituality - and here she was again in this life time manifesting the damage from that and blocking herself from following her desired and authentic path.

Then the next caller came on - a lady who fell in love with a guy who she was very much into - who just upped and left one day without warning - she couldn't figure out why she had been unable to let this guy go - she just couldn't cut the cords and move on, thus blocked in her heart and devastated - still!!!! Oh well, that was like music to my ears - I just had to hear the host's answer to that one. Of course it rings to my own inability to let go of something that died a death many years ago - and knowing that on August 17th, it will be exactly ten years since we met on that beach.

So the host said that it was to do with abandonment and not feeling that LOVE IS SAFE - OMG - you know that moment when the light bulb just goes off - and the Angels are just cheering and clapping - imagine that I tuned in at that precise moment to hear that precise thing?? So anyways, she was told that in a past life, this same guy had basically done a runner - and that now here he showed up again to help her to heal her heart and help her to get to the point where she felt SAFE IN LOVE - Yes I have to have to write that in big letters - because a reader once told me that my daily affirmation needs to be "I am safe and secure" - I have had abandonment issues too to some degree - I know cos I have written here about them. Holy Moly!!!!!! Thank You God :) So that has been my work too - to feel safe again and to trust - I know I don't trust easy - I am very skeptical but oddly have been very naiive in the past too - letting all manner of weirdos into my life!

Talk about an 'ah-ha' moment.

Since being a child and watching the 'Thorn Birds', I have always always always thought that love leads to devastation and heartbreak and I know like I know like I know that on some deep cellular level that is has to do with something that happened in another life. Sound nuts? To you maybe. But I know that he didn't just happen to turn up that day, at that time, on that beach looking the way he did by accident. God knew that this was the only person I would take heed of - because in my eyes he was beautiful - and I was mesmerized. So a 'gift'. So that I was forced to heal myself.

It is also no coincidence that I was sitting next to his body and face double earlier today - it freaked me out so much that I figured that they had to be related or something.

And I am still the same now as I was ten years ago - I would do just about anything to squish his face and see him smile. BUT and it's a big but - I'm okay with that feeling now - instead of fighting it with my core, I am just surrendering to the fact that even when I will most certainly be with my new and 'improved' life partner and soul mate, I will still always have those feelings for the Slovenian - and that's okay. It will not take from the new special person in my life, it will instead make me better able to appreciate and love him. I won't make the same mistakes again  - cos this time I will feel safe to throw my arms around his neck and tell him that I love him - this time I will be SAFE TO LOVE.

I remember lines from EAT PRAY LOVE when she says that "God Lives In You As YOU" - there is no external - and these precious insights have come to me in the very moments that I have consciously decided to be good to myself - instead of sitting here on this couch and moping about how shit it is that I have lost another job, I got my bootie to yoga yesterday - and honest to God, the moment I got on that bike for the yoga ride session I just wanted to cry because I had found my way home. I can't explain it more than to say that nothing fills me with more joy and excitement than being good to myself and honoring myself. I was so excited getting ready for class. And in comes this strange looking fellow in this unitard with black eye liner and I just thought 'oh f**k', but it was awesome. And then at the end when you have to lay down and relax he belted out 'Bridge Over Troubled Water' - it was seconds before I realized that he was singing and he was amazing!!!! This funny little guy in his unitard - who took the straps down to reveal his little pot belly was just an amazing singer!! And everybody was smiling :)

And I went again today for hot yoga - 40 degree heat and smelly sweating bodies - but what felt like such a huge cleanse.

I am ready like I have never been ready before to breathe in this thing we call life. To be the best version of myself that I can be and to know in my heart that the Universe has a space for me exactly as I am - just as I am - with no changes or amendments, I am LOVED.

So next time Mercury Retrograde comes knocking at my door, I'll be like 'nah nah nah nah nah - not this time sucker!!!!!!' :)

Okay - I'm gonna get my bikini on and head on down to the pool and then watch 'Bachelor Pad' later :)

Remember - be good to yourself - and if you do eat that slice of cake or smoke that cigarette or drink that glass of wine - be good to yourself and don't beat yourself up. We all need a little less self-berating and lot more loving - mwah!!! :) Oh and with my Brother miles away and with Raksha Bandhan coming up this Saturday, I have used a picture to illustrate this lovely celebration - of love between Brothers and Sisters. I am just sorry that I won't be there to tie the string around his wrist and tell him just how truly amazing he is.

I can breathe again............................

The craziest thing happened this week, after the dread of going into work on Tuesday morning and spending the whole of my Monday in anxious anticipation - just after an hour of starting our group was laid off. Hearing the words over the phone, I was convinced that we were on candid camera and this whole thing was just a joke - but as I examined the faces one by one around the table, I knew that this was for real and that this schmuck was about to affect our lives forever.

Of course I had not had the chance to truly blend in with the group - still being ostracized by my own peers - ignored and 'seen through' for no reason that was apparent to me, I was not able to touch the devastation that this would no doubt cause at some level. All I could think about was getting the f**k outa there. In those 5 blessed weeks, I have had all of my triggers exposed and like I said to my ex-boss yesterday, the gift in all this is that I 'grew a pair' - I am okay not being part of that group - I am okay not being one of the sheep - I own the fact that some of us are just plain different and our simple 'being' is enough to throw some people way off balance - to the point that they bully you and exclude you.

At 8.15am I was listening to 3 of the 5 around the table share stories of the weekend and how they had all got together to enjoy the weekend festivities in the city. How would anyone feel listening to that? The idiot in my building started about a week ago to flat out ignore my existence - he would not look around when I said 'morning' or 'bye' in the evenings - even in a group setting, he wouldn't even look in my direction when I sat at the shared table. So when we heard the 9am shocker, I had to chuckle when this donkey finally found the cheek to open his mouth and talk to me, I wanted to tear the hair out of his bog eyed face.

So what 'we are friends now?' - not that you want to share your pain - you want to share it with me? I am sorry mate, but I have not reached that point of compassion and forgiveness yet - you will have to excuse me for taking my time. Afterall you and your friend are the two that were making nasty comments under your breath to me just a few days ago and blanking me as you stood up to go and have coffee - and had me crying at 5.30am in the morning when I was filled with dread at having to get up and go to that place and now you - now you want to share your pain with me - get f**ked!!!!!

I have to say that I was probably the only one that walked out of that room after the announcement and felt a tremendous amount of relief. My only goal was to get to my desk fast enough, clear it and get outa there as fast as possible. Of course in shock, the group was milling around not knowing what to do - just walking around in circles, some cried and others hugged and I was just there - the 'outsider' looking into this facade of broken down egos, just thinking that it really could not have happened to a nicer bunch of people! Sarcasm intended there of course.

My doubts and intuition about the 'story' in that place suddenly made perfect sense - for days now I had figured out the plot - it's like any story really with the good guys and the bad guys, the guys plotting so that they look good, the guys plotting so that they can feel good, the guys plotting because they have no idea what they are doing - and all this time as a collective group, they have to have a 'fall guy' and once VPL moved into the other team and out of the line of fire - they were slowly grooming me - so that I would be the reason that things weren't working. It became clear to me on day one of this job that my boss had no idea what he was doing - none!!!! So all fear encompassing - this is how things played out - it's like that book 'Lord of the Flies'.

Toxic to the max.

So yes, I packed my box with what little I had on my desk and then swiftly went over to the head honcho and asked about my expenses - I want my money afterall - knowing that that was all in hand, I practically legged it to my car and drove out of the drive and home - I 'whooped' it all the way home at the top of my voice. The pleasure I felt at watching that whole charade crumble after the way I had been treated is something that I will never forget.

And now? Well now really is the calm after the storm - or is it the storm again - afterall, I can't believe that I am looking for work again - it's nuts to think that we are in August and I have only worked for a grand total of 5 weeks so far this year. But with all the lessons intact from the last time I was in this predicament, I am doing everything I can to battle the feelings that arose then. But a part of me thinks that I will just have to sit and embrace this darkness for a while - so that I can just move through it rather than fight it.

The weather is awesome - summer time is here and I have to say that I have a lovely group of friends supporting me. Four of us went out to watch a movie last night and then I stood on the bridge alone and watched the fireworks. Alone I say - I realized that I have to make a distinction - I am physically alone - and that kinda lonely only becomes noticeable when I am standing on the bridge watching fireworks alone as all the couples around me are grabbing onto each other and sharing their 'wows' and 'oooooh's' as they watch the show. I could feel myself welling up so I came home - I was remembering going to watch them with my Mom and Dad two years ago and we had had so much fun.

So I came back to my little cocoon and sat here and watched the ending of Tyler Perry's 'For Colored Girls' - now you must know by now that I do love watching a good film, but nothing makes me happier than watching a good film that actually moves me in my core - and this was one of them - I highly recommend you watch it - it's a very powerful film and I loved the way that they incorporated poetry into the scenes - Thandie Newton was amazing in it and I had forgotten how strikingly beautiful this woman is. Go see it please!!!!!

So I'm off to hang by the pool today - I have promised myself a day free of stress and anxiety - I am going to share myself with nature on the green green grass and stare up at the sky - I love doing that and watching the shapes in the clouds - last time I saw an eagle and a dolphin :)

Oh and I am so happy that I can get back to my writing now :) Have a nice day!!